magical dreamer

this chanel has become mine. slightly different color than expected and it is the largest size which looks like a tiny suitcase but i love and and so glad that i have it.   

Last night we went to dinner at my aunt's house and they had The Girl on the Train prepared for us to watch. I had trouble concentrating because it was so noisy and the kids were running around everywhere but once I was able to finally concentrate, I loved it. It had a lot of things that I loved in a story. Ugly human nature. I love it when you can see that the characters show their ugly sides, or know that what they are doing isn't right but they know who they are. Some of the things that the main character did/had done to her are a bit hard to watch. While watching the movie I went on my iPhone and bought the book on iBooks. I started reading it last night and finished this evening, that's how much I couldn't put it down. This is the sort of book that I would want to write about. Incidents where a character perceives events a certain way, only for the reader to discover later on that the truth was completely different. I would love to read a book from the perspe...

It's amazing. I kept thinking this song refers to a couple problem without knowing it was actually intended to be something different. I am extremely unhappy with my situation. The unhappiness has spilled into other areas of my life where I feel I pretty much lost enjoyment of everything. I detest this house even more than ever. Everyone says no don't worry, when you've fixed it up you'll love it but I can't even begin to think about fixing it because everything about it just makes me sick. It's ridiculous...it feels like I am taking everything for granted. I am so thankful and so blessed, but this pain? This pain I just can't help.

How fun is it that we have just gotten an equestrian themed update on Bakery Story? It's so exciting that weekly updates are mini goals. It's a way to get players involved in all the appliances that come out and making it worthwhile to actually acquire the final decoration item in that goal. I just love that horsey wallpaper!

After all my recent disappointments I decided there are several things I need to do to make myself feel better. Looking at new Chanel bags is one of those things. Firstly there's this flap bag with a top handle, similar to the old style ones. Except I wonder if there was a way to remove the top strap or pull it through so that it cannot be seen it all? That and the fact that it isn't gold hardware are both the only downsides to me. Otherwise it looks like a lovely bag. Another flap with a top handle.I'm finding this one in particular reminding me slightly of the Louis Vuitton Mettis, which is one of my favorite bags. I love Chanel's take on making the business briefcase or the school bag into elegance and ladylike. The same can be said like that of the previous bag, however, I would wonder if it were possible to remove the shoulder strap. I would have to try it to see if I can carry off the Chanel classic chain with this style of bag. The vanity...

There is a blog managed by women for (mostly) women that I read from time to time. The owner/editor announced a few days ago that she hired new writers for her blog. On reading that I felt like... I wish I had applied and got accepted. I am not much of a writer anymore, but it really feels that writing for that specific website/blog would make me happy and it would be a good start in getting back into writing. While in Japan, I started scribbling into a notebook about a story that I am planning to write. I just don't know how it would turn out. Writing scares me a lot now and I feel like part of my soul is exposed. On my last post, I still sometimes wish I never got mixed up with this family. It makes me wonder if I had been happy to remain unmarried. I wouldn't be carrying all the extra weight on my head, and on my head alone. At the same time, I feel ridiculous to think all this. If I hadn't gotten married, I wouldn't have been blessed with my beautiful daughter a...

Lately I just haven't been sure what to write about. I didn't want to write about mundane events anymore. I have feelings that I just need to get out. There's a person who's been haunting me. My relationship with her was shaky at best, but knowing me, I just don't know when to walk away from a situation that doesn't work for me anymore. The relationship was a friendship in its loosest form. To keep this short, I guess there was a competition that I didn't know about. There were misunderstandings and me, in my weakness, I just kept apologizing as if I had really wronged her even though I haven't. For the longest time I was under her spell and I truly believed that I had caused her the misfortune that she claims I did. Finally, I had reached the end of the tether and cut communications between us. It wasn't that simple. The aftereffects of what I finally did just wouldn't leave me alone. We are basically a family. Dysfunctional, but a family (a...

i had 2 scrapbooks that i was working on during my pregnancy with my son. one was for my daughter and it had pictures of her from the very first ultrasound till the last and from when she was born till my son was born. the other one had pics of events and things that i was a part of. i can find neither of these scrapbooks and it makes me so sad. 

Just went back to having hydrafacial and my first session was just earlier. i was fully prepared to have it done every 2 weeks but was informed there was no need and once a month is enough. but they did recommend a different treatment for my acne scarring, which is laser based. going to try that next week hopefully. My perfume of the moment. Can't believe there's not much of it left. this is the one i got from jo malone in munich last april.  

i loved tokyo so much that i'm sad to leave. i hope hubby still wants to go...

I guess one thing i'm glad that we are leaving Japan tomorrow night for is...that i can start going back to the gym and things can settle down before uni & nursery start again.  Thinking of purchasing a new 3ds but i just can't make a decision...