magical dreamer

So I received a call from the Hermes boutique saying that they will receive a constance with specifications desirable to me. But I rejected it because they said I would have to make purchases around 20% less of its price in order to be able to purchase it. And the purchases cannot be in bags. Bags are easy. I love bags. I want variations of bags I already have (leather, size, hardware, etc) but I can't randomly spend that type of money on a wallet I'm not sold on, or jewelry that I don't even like. It's ridiculous. In addition, they couldn't find my kelly wish from 2015 in order to adjust it to size 32. I find that really frustrating. I find myself not wanting the constance anymore. I still want a 32 kelly but I don't care- I'll wait till we go to Japan again and will try my luck there even if it means buying it from a secondary market. I wish I bought that pink ostrich birkin from Japan :(

After all my recent disappointments I decided there are several things I need to do to make myself feel better. Looking at new Chanel bags is one of those things. Firstly there's this flap bag with a top handle, similar to the old style ones. Except I wonder if there was a way to remove the top strap or pull it through so that it cannot be seen it all? That and the fact that it isn't gold hardware are both the only downsides to me. Otherwise it looks like a lovely bag. Another flap with a top handle.I'm finding this one in particular reminding me slightly of the Louis Vuitton Mettis, which is one of my favorite bags. I love Chanel's take on making the business briefcase or the school bag into elegance and ladylike. The same can be said like that of the previous bag, however, I would wonder if it were possible to remove the shoulder strap. I would have to try it to see if I can carry off the Chanel classic chain with this style of bag. The vanity...

So I keep browsing the adidas website and especially the Stella Mccartney collections. I have my eyes on a couple of pieces but I'm not going to oblige myself this one. The only reason I'll allow myself to purchase new gym clothes is if I lose a lot of weight and my current ones are too big. I doubt this would happen as this plateau I've hit seems like it's no longer a plateau and just a straight line. As for the car, the dealership informed me that they currently only have it in white and silver with the interior combination that I prefer. It doesn't matter to me too much so I will probably just go for the white. I hope that it is still available next week as I'm not going to make the commitment too fast!

I kinda have my eyes on 2 Cartier bracelets that I'd like to decide between. It doesn't mean I'll get them now just that I want to see which one to go for first. I already have a rose gold love bracelet with no diamonds. So right now I'm trying to decide between a 4 diamond yellow gold love or a yellow gold juste un clou. Pictures were from Cartier.com

I love this cute cat bag from Chanel. I feel like I really want to add it to my collection. Although the pattern is seasonal it's just so cute and it's cats! What more could I ask for? I am really hungry today. I had 2 boiled egg sandwiches for breakfast and a salad for lunch. Right now it's 5.30 and I'm starved. I wonder if I should have a light dinner now before class? The level of hunger I've reached can be quite distracting I believe. And it's not like I'm craving anything specific, so it's not carb cravings or anything like that. Not really in the mood for class at all. I feel down because my summer vacation didn't go as I'd hoped and everything else I'd been looking forward to just went down the drain recently. I don't feel like I have the energy to do anything.

Been looking for these lovely bucket bag by Mansur Gavriel (pic from net-a-porter) and finally found them. it's been years since I've tried ordering anything from there...hope that if I do order, it's accepted. 

Saw this beautiful satin jewelry box from Miu Miu at net-a-porter a while back. I don't actually need a new jewelry box nor do i plan on purchasing it, but it was too pretty not to be posted on my blog.  This post isn't actually a happy one. yesterday I heard that my sister is going to Japan next week. I had a feeling she had travel plans coming up but she tends to tiptoe these subjects around me because (I assume) she knows my pain and struggles.  My sister's ability to travel wasn't taken from me. It was hers to begin with. so it's not like I feel that my opportunities were taken away or anything like that. But it doesn't make it any easier to deal with. Why is it that going out to eat or shop and take trips comes to me so much than it does others? Other people's struggles seem to be: -do my partner and I have the same days off so we can travel together? -should we take the kids or leave them with grandparents? -which restaurant sh...

My nail polish of the moment. It's not black, it's supposed to be super dark red but appears black most of the time. I like dark nails because I feel it makes fingers appear longer. Still reading A Game of Thrones and really interested in all the new insights it is giving me. Basically all the things the show lacks. In the show you sometimes see a character looking at something but you can't really tell what they're thinking. Or well, maybe others can but I can't. The book allowed me to understand what those thoughts were. Also still have the white and black chanel bag on my mind. It's so lovely I feel I may not be able to resist making the purchase.

Today I saw this wallet on chain from chanel in person and fell in love. I fear I may end up buying it! it just makes me think of vintage bags! 

Since I started looking at Hermes...I couldn't very well see an end in sight. L'ecrin is an amazing reseller with boutiques in both Japan and Singapore. Here is what I couldn't get my eyes off... First comes this gorgeous Birkin 25 in Ruby and gold hardware in togo. I am definitely not a red bag person but the color Ruby makes me think of cherries and strawberries for some reason. Most of my family know by now that it is my dream to own a pink birkin, but no such luck as they are extremely rare. Even the reseller prices reflect its rarity! This is Ms. Birkin 30 in Rose Confetti silver hardware in epsom. A pink Kelly is another dream of mine. Placing both pinks near each other in one page kind of shows how different they are. This is a 25 Kelly in Rose Sakura, gold hardware and swift leather. I feel swift leather suits this gorgeous soft pink. Blue Saint-Cyr seems like such a lovely and feminine blue. I think it looks perfect on this 28 Kelly in clemenc...

Well...there's a really good chance the Tokyo trip is getting postponed for a second time. Yesterday I was really torn apart over it and felt my feelings of worthlessness resurfacing but today I am better. Postponing the trip till December is actually much better. The weather will be completely different. It'll be cold! Coming from a warm climate this sounds really amazing. I would love to go somewhere else for now but we aren't sure if it would be possible due to lengthy visa processes. For the moment, I've decided to look at Hermes.com  and their available bags (wondering if I can find any of them at my local boutique). First comes this small garden party in cobalt. I already have a garden party but in a larger size. I find it to be a really practical bag and I love having simple bags in many colors. Then comes this So Kelly in Peony and gold hardware. I don't know if Peony is an official Hermes color but that's what it says on the website. I've...

My finance final is over...only marketing to go now and I can't bring myself to study (as usual). More window shopping, this time from gymshark.com This is the second time I've posted a pastel pink long sleeve tee shirt. I think it's time I add one to my gym wardrobe.  There is something about pastels. This last pair of leggings looks like magic. 

My good friend M just gave me the web address of a retailer that sells really pretty bags! It's called lapalette.us I found their leather goods to be really adorable. Decided to post up pictures of my favorite pieces.  If it has a horse, I'll want o know more about it. Actually I only asked about my friend's bag because it had a horse on it.  They are so lovely and low-key. The colors are so attractive and the price is so reasonable.  If I ever go to Malaysia, I would have to go check out their boutiques! 

Here we are again. Instead of studying, here I am looking at Chanel eye candy. Pics are all from Chanel.com  Decided to just post up pictures of my favorite things from the fall-winter collection.

My semester deliverables have all been delivered! All that's left is my final exams next week. I just don't feel like studying today so I'm taking it off, lol. These screenshots were tall taken from the Chanel website. I've really been interested in Chanel lately after having mostly ignored it my entire adult life. I do have a few of their handbags that I do not use too often. But last year I got the camera bag that I really love. Now I find myself more interested in their collections as a whole.  Almost bought this little red one on the left recently but changed my mind at the last minute. Mostly because I already bought a different colored wallet-on-chain just a week earlier! The colors of these two bags are so classy and elegant! I wonder, though, if the style would remain timeless or would feel like "old trendy" a few years down the line? Really interested in chevron these days. I do wonder if one day I'll finally tak...

My attempt at procrastinating has been successful. I am supposed to be studying for a marketing quiz but here I am looking at workout wear! I really do not need any new workout wear but I just can't help it. These pictures were all snapped from Lorna Jane. This top is very pretty. I like the diamond quilt like print in the fabric. I think there is a lack of this color in my gym wardrobe. A hoodie tank top! I have been coveting this for months now. They actually had something similar on sale a while back but I couldn't find my size. It's pink. What more can I say? I love the mesh at the tip of the tights. It's very interesting.  Another interesting mesh type of design. Maybe even more interesting than the previous one.  As I said...I don't need any new workout clothes, but knowing me I am probably going to go order right after I am done blogging...

Before this semester started, I went out to shop for some shoes. I wanted a pair of every day kitten heels. Neither of these is a kitten heel but they are gorgeous. The one on the left is still on my mind a lot!