magical dreamer

I'm writing this on my phone while sitting with my kids playing in the bath. They're clapping their hands in the bubbles and building castles with them.  A week on prozac has just passed and I'm not sure if anything feels any different. Or maybe this is a significant difference that I've taken for granted: it seems I didn't have any bouts of intrusive negative thoughts this past week. Whether it is caused by prozac or not is unclear. On the other hand, jaw clenching has returned. This was a side-effect of my previous medication. It is so bad that the jaw pain is constant.  ~~~~~~~ the bath was done so i had to get the kiddos dressed and ready.  tomorrow morning i'm going to be having my second therapy session with a new therapist and i'm kinda nervous.  ~~~~~~~ something i ate at dinner got stuck and/or injured my throat and it's sore right now...making me nauseous...

Started taking this pink bubblegum bag for a spin a while back but it already spent a bit more than a week with me and it's back in the closet. i cant wait to reduce my bag collection because i am overwhelmed for once. but i do need to mull over what to sell/give away because i have no room for regrets.  tomorrow the kids will hopefully be ready to go back to school.  

It just struck me how guilty i feel that my kids, especially my daughter, have missed 10 days of preschool. in september my daughter is starting a new chapter in a different establishment. she has really enjoyed preschool and loves her teachers and caretakers, but right now she only has one more month with them but she's sick. i would like her (both of them actually) not to still be throwing up or having loose bms before going...and what if it's contagious? i just dont know what to do.

Today I'm taking my daughter to the doctor because she's had a fever for a few days now. I'm worried the baby will catch what she has, too. I didn't bring him. left him at my grandmother's house with a baby sitter.  Hubby's come home 2 weekends in a row and I'm so happy about that! he says he's probably not coming back next weekend though. I'm planning to close my bakery & restaurant on the weekends that he does come home so I could spend my time with him & the kids and my spare time could be spent studying. I did study a bit of economics this weekend but I found it so confusing...need to meet with the professor next week to discuss my issues.