magical dreamer

Saw these shoes yesterday on my shopping trip and couldn't help but buy them. They were really affordable, too, in comparison to what I usually buy. Just saw them in the shop window and had to go in and try. I miss that feeling, the feeling of seeing something beautiful in person and wanting to try it. Lately most of my shopping is done online and that really takes the fun out of it. However, I am older now and get easily shopped out. I wanted to look for a skirt in a specific style and just got too tired to look.  Made an appointment with a psychiatrist dr for next weekend... I think my symptoms have gone long enough and it's time to see if there's anything that could change.  I've been wanting to change the layout and color scheme of my blog, but I just don't know where to start. When I was younger it was a passion of mine to go through layouts and write code but now I guess I just got old and boring. 

I guess I've hit a weight-loss plateau right now. I will propose this challenge. If by the end of November, I reach 65 kgs and remain at 65 kgs (or even lose), I will reward myself with the following shoes: These shoes were sort of on my wishlist since before I got married. The Gina flats. But there was never a right time/occasion to buy them and I ended up getting other shoes. The last pair of shoes I bought was in April. Not that I desperately need shoes, but in order to put my shopping in check and motivate myself to lose weight, this sounds like a suitable reward. However, if I do not reach the weight at the specified time, there has to be a penalty, right? So if I do not reach 65 kgs by the end of November, I will not be getting those shoes even if I reach the weight at a later time! That is my goal. 65 kg by the end of November and maintaining it or losing more for the 2 weeks after reaching it.

Got this several weeks ago and have only opened it a few days ago. it's a cute pair of shoes in a style i've been interested in since january. but shows the level of interest since i haven't worn them yet. i keep telling myself that i'll stop being sharing. i'll tell people nothing. i'll keep things because sharing only hurts me. but i never learn, do i... there's no one that i havent opened up to about the surgery that i'm not going to do. but i wanted to learn from their experiences if they had them...