magical dreamer

I guess I've hit a weight-loss plateau right now. I will propose this challenge. If by the end of November, I reach 65 kgs and remain at 65 kgs (or even lose), I will reward myself with the following shoes: These shoes were sort of on my wishlist since before I got married. The Gina flats. But there was never a right time/occasion to buy them and I ended up getting other shoes. The last pair of shoes I bought was in April. Not that I desperately need shoes, but in order to put my shopping in check and motivate myself to lose weight, this sounds like a suitable reward. However, if I do not reach the weight at the specified time, there has to be a penalty, right? So if I do not reach 65 kgs by the end of November, I will not be getting those shoes even if I reach the weight at a later time! That is my goal. 65 kg by the end of November and maintaining it or losing more for the 2 weeks after reaching it.

Easier to blog from a laptop but it isn't what I always want to do. I am not sure if people in my closer circle perceive my problems/pains as a lack of something to do. Over the past year, where I was stressed and worried about school, money, kids, my marriage and my weight/body shape, certain people keep giving me advice about what to do with my free time. Like why don't I start a blog about bags or things I like? Why don't I get a job? Why don't I exercise or go to the gym? I already have a blog, but I feel like I can't have a blog solely about bags because I honestly don't care that much about bags anymore. I might have bags that interest me here and there but it is no longer a constant thing. Besides, I already have this blog. It is personal/anonymous so I guess it's not what that person meant. And anyway, I just can't get the motivation for these suggestions; except thinking that my problems are "imaginary" and that I need to keep myself...

This evening I had another consultation for a tummy tuck. The dr actually said that she also recommends breast reduction, which had been on my mind but my tummy is a bigger priority for me. Tentatively, I will probably have the procedure done in September! Costs around 30% higher than the last place, but the dr really put my mind at ease which is the main reason in my mind I am ok with it. By September I hope to be at a normal BMI (25 and under). I am currently at the BMI of 26.2 or so. 

In terms of school... finish up my remaining research and study in order to be done with my semester by the end of April. No travel plans for May so i can just relax until my summer semester starts. Probably can properly toilet train/enfroce toilet training for my daughter.  In terms of my body... -Go back to intermitten fasting as soon as we are home from the holidays. -Use the treadmill for 20 mins minimum every day -Add 1 pop pilates video to my workouts every other day. -Record weight once a week Depending on my progress, i will schedule an appointment with a plastic in 4 months. By then I'll hopefully have graduated and can afford to have some downtime. I wont necessarily have the surgery in August...maybe something like September or something. I need to be able to schedule it properly so it doesnt come between launching my own business.  My procedure of choice? Liposuction. Why? Because even when I had a BMI of 18, I still had belly fat. I am genetically dispositioned to...