magical dreamer

So many things to contemplate. A few things changed in my mind lately.  We've gone to France a few times during our stay in Switzerland. Only a few more days to go but I honestly feel done and ready to go home. M's formula is about to finish...so I have to get her something new here. It was quite a big miscalculation in my opinion but I think we'll be fine. The only brand I saw here was aptimil, and she's had it before when she was 4 months old so I'm not worried about it being foreign to her. She's been eating yogurt and ella's kitchen satchets but we're almost out of the latter.  I had a dream that I am preparing for the arrival of a baby girl. It's kind of surprising as I am 5 weeks and 4 days pregnant. With M at 6 weeks and a few days I dreamed that M was a girl. But the circumstances were different with M. This is what I saw today.

I've decided that I need to make better diet choices already rather than wait till we go back home. It's really difficult because sometimes the grills are too expensive and just some fish and chips are better for the pockets (though I don't enjoy the chips), but at least I did a good job rejecting chocolates and sweets today. But I ate a whole lot of alpen and chewy nature valley bars that were too sweet for me so maybe it wasn't a good day anyway.  I'm torn between wanting to feel pregnant and wanting to have energy to exercise and eat healthy. I hope and pray for a sticky bean.  Bought this toner recently but I can't find the small pack of cotton pads I bought. 

There are so many things I'd like to do to keep myself busy, rather than worrying about things that I feel that I'd like to have but can't. The simple truth is, even if I didn't have the current obstacles I'd have other ones. This is what I believe.  In other news, I'm pregnant! 

I really don't feel pregnant. At least I'll have another month to lose weight before trying again.  Finished all of Rainbow Rowell's books. I feel book hungover. I think this is why I don't read.