magical dreamer

Easier to blog from a laptop but it isn't what I always want to do. I am not sure if people in my closer circle perceive my problems/pains as a lack of something to do. Over the past year, where I was stressed and worried about school, money, kids, my marriage and my weight/body shape, certain people keep giving me advice about what to do with my free time. Like why don't I start a blog about bags or things I like? Why don't I get a job? Why don't I exercise or go to the gym? I already have a blog, but I feel like I can't have a blog solely about bags because I honestly don't care that much about bags anymore. I might have bags that interest me here and there but it is no longer a constant thing. Besides, I already have this blog. It is personal/anonymous so I guess it's not what that person meant. And anyway, I just can't get the motivation for these suggestions; except thinking that my problems are "imaginary" and that I need to keep myself...

Saw this beautiful satin jewelry box from Miu Miu at net-a-porter a while back. I don't actually need a new jewelry box nor do i plan on purchasing it, but it was too pretty not to be posted on my blog.  This post isn't actually a happy one. yesterday I heard that my sister is going to Japan next week. I had a feeling she had travel plans coming up but she tends to tiptoe these subjects around me because (I assume) she knows my pain and struggles.  My sister's ability to travel wasn't taken from me. It was hers to begin with. so it's not like I feel that my opportunities were taken away or anything like that. But it doesn't make it any easier to deal with. Why is it that going out to eat or shop and take trips comes to me so much than it does others? Other people's struggles seem to be: -do my partner and I have the same days off so we can travel together? -should we take the kids or leave them with grandparents? -which restaurant sh...