magical dreamer

This morning my husband sent me 3 reddit posts. One was about a woman who lost around 22 kilos. I guess to him that's a way of motivating me. The woman looks beautiful in both her before and after pictures. But you know what? Even in her before shot, she didn't have a belly that even remotely resembles mine. I haven't really seen bellies like mine reduce so I don't feel like I have proof it can even happen. So it feels like unless I have surgery, I will always have this mixture of fat and sag and open muscles. The second post was a cute cat post. The third was titled, "I look at this picture whenever I feel that life has been unfair to me,". You could probably guess what the picture was. The type of picture that makes you feel guilty for whining about your first world problems. It makes me feel that there is a voice that nags at me, "you have a roof over your head, safety, peace, a loving family, food on the table, you have everything and you still fe...

Hello, my name is K and I am a Victoria's Secret sportswear addict...even when I'm on a trip.  We came to a hotel 2 hrs away for a short getaway since we aren't traveling for quite a while. A told me he might not get a holiday longer than 3 days so there go my Maldivian dreams.  Hearing or seeing anything related to the Maldives causes me to have a little poke in chest. It's nothing big, just a poke, the honeymoon I didn't get to go on, the castle I never competed, the level I could never reach. I have realized now that everyone has something in their lives that causes them that little poke. But my question is, why are some affected by that poke more than others? Or is it simply that some people are more obvious than others? Or that some have gotten so good at hiding the pain that they no longer realize that they have it?