magical dreamer

Found something cute and small at Hermes yesterday! A constance wallet in orange poppy!  We also finally watched Beauty & the Beast and i loved it so much! The actors and actresses were all so perfect for their parts and the production was overall amazing!   

My bag of the moment. 37 camel bolide gold hardware possibly in clemence i am not sure as i've had it for a long time. Because i'm stressed about my studies, i'm just sitting here watching grey's anatomy fantasizing about my hair being in better condition. everyone on that show has great hair! i love amelia shephard's hair in season 11 and i love april kepner's hair in season 13! and i still have no idea what i'll do about my hair. i feel like my natural roots will eventually reach my shoulders until i make a decison!  

This one is my etoupe 35 with gold hardware. i really want a gold 32 with gold hardware. i don't know if i'd ever be offered one...  

So I received a call from the Hermes boutique saying that they will receive a constance with specifications desirable to me. But I rejected it because they said I would have to make purchases around 20% less of its price in order to be able to purchase it. And the purchases cannot be in bags. Bags are easy. I love bags. I want variations of bags I already have (leather, size, hardware, etc) but I can't randomly spend that type of money on a wallet I'm not sold on, or jewelry that I don't even like. It's ridiculous. In addition, they couldn't find my kelly wish from 2015 in order to adjust it to size 32. I find that really frustrating. I find myself not wanting the constance anymore. I still want a 32 kelly but I don't care- I'll wait till we go to Japan again and will try my luck there even if it means buying it from a secondary market. I wish I bought that pink ostrich birkin from Japan :(

My hermes boutique has a system where they would only release a birkin you buy a big piece of jewelry. So i bought a kelly bracelet and this birkin 30 in rouge grenat togo with gold hardware. i really really broke the bank doing this. and to those who think that i'm going to cause my family to starve, no, that's not the case. my family worked hard so that we can have what we have now and i was not raised as a big spender, although i was given gifts from my family regularly as i was growing up and even now, i only started spoiling myself when i became an adult and i still can't help but feel guilty. none of my siblings are big spenders like i am and they don't really care for luxury goods like i do. that's why i feel guilty.  yet at the same time, i still want an exotic kelly and a normal kelly. my purpose for going to hermes was to change my waitlist order from kelly 35 to kelly 32. it will be 2 years since i made the order this summer, but it looks like it might st...

this trip coming to an end. i don't feel like i enjoyed it to the max. there are so many more things we should have done. but i also don't know how we could have done things differently. one thing i would change is that my kids no longer need a double stroller. a small single one is sufficient. i already have 2 babyzen yoyo strollers for them but my son's still has the infant seat, id have to go purchase the next seat up. even if we do bring along 2 strollers it's doubtful that we would use both of them.  i really like these jeans from asos.com but just not sure if the only size they have available is actually mine. as for the kelly, i will just wait for the boutique to offer me mine and see if they would agree to letting me have a size 28 with gold hardware instead of a size 35. it can probably be arranged. i'll just visit the boutique and ask.  still wondering if we should go to disneysea tomorrow...i'm more for it than ever as i don't think there will be ...

The dumbo popcorn bucket is our memento from Disneyland Tokyo. My kids were so happy and we all had a wonderful time. I am not a popcorn person, but since the milk chocolate popcorn smell was sooo invasive, i decided to give it a try and both the kids and i really enjoyed it. we are so going to use the bucket for popcorn again back home so we can enjoy it and remember this lovely trip.  today we went to the gardens around the meiji shrine. we didn't bring our stroller so it was really exhausting for the kids and us by extension. it was really beautiful but cold, too. we went to the dominique ansel bakery afterward too and the food was good but i really didn't like the s'mores! we had dinner at laduree for novelty's sake too and it was lovely. i couldn't take any pics though because i had to give my son my phone otherwise he'd have continued to cry and we would have probably been asked to leave lol... well, i dunno if we would have but it's very stressful to ...

Since I started looking at Hermes...I couldn't very well see an end in sight. L'ecrin is an amazing reseller with boutiques in both Japan and Singapore. Here is what I couldn't get my eyes off... First comes this gorgeous Birkin 25 in Ruby and gold hardware in togo. I am definitely not a red bag person but the color Ruby makes me think of cherries and strawberries for some reason. Most of my family know by now that it is my dream to own a pink birkin, but no such luck as they are extremely rare. Even the reseller prices reflect its rarity! This is Ms. Birkin 30 in Rose Confetti silver hardware in epsom. A pink Kelly is another dream of mine. Placing both pinks near each other in one page kind of shows how different they are. This is a 25 Kelly in Rose Sakura, gold hardware and swift leather. I feel swift leather suits this gorgeous soft pink. Blue Saint-Cyr seems like such a lovely and feminine blue. I think it looks perfect on this 28 Kelly in clemenc...

Well...there's a really good chance the Tokyo trip is getting postponed for a second time. Yesterday I was really torn apart over it and felt my feelings of worthlessness resurfacing but today I am better. Postponing the trip till December is actually much better. The weather will be completely different. It'll be cold! Coming from a warm climate this sounds really amazing. I would love to go somewhere else for now but we aren't sure if it would be possible due to lengthy visa processes. For the moment, I've decided to look at Hermes.com  and their available bags (wondering if I can find any of them at my local boutique). First comes this small garden party in cobalt. I already have a garden party but in a larger size. I find it to be a really practical bag and I love having simple bags in many colors. Then comes this So Kelly in Peony and gold hardware. I don't know if Peony is an official Hermes color but that's what it says on the website. I've...