The First Cut is the Deepest

This is so hard to understand. Will I ever get over the pain of not getting what I feel I rightfully deserve? Will anything ever make up for the way I was treated? When will this ever end? At times it feels like I've gotten over it, like I've moved on, like everything will be okay. Then all of a sudden one day the tape starts repeating itself, the track is on loop and I have no way of reaching the stop or delete button. Why can't I be normal? Why can't I be happy? Why is pain overtaking me?

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