magical dreamer

My horse has been missing for maybe a year now and I just now managed to find it. I had given it to DD to play with and I ended up finding it in her lunchbox.  Yesterday I went to the gym and did both body pump and spinning. I was supposed to go today too but woke up feeling a bit sick so I decided to play it safe and cancel my sessions. Tomorrow morning I've got a work related meeting. in the evening im torn between planning to go out with the kids or stay home and watch a family movie like Monster Inc or something. I need a new camera charger as I seem to have lost my old one. But at the same time going out means I'll mess up the kids' sleep schedules... DH had a 3 day weekend but it is coming to an end today. I miss him already. 

Since I started looking at Hermes...I couldn't very well see an end in sight. L'ecrin is an amazing reseller with boutiques in both Japan and Singapore. Here is what I couldn't get my eyes off... First comes this gorgeous Birkin 25 in Ruby and gold hardware in togo. I am definitely not a red bag person but the color Ruby makes me think of cherries and strawberries for some reason. Most of my family know by now that it is my dream to own a pink birkin, but no such luck as they are extremely rare. Even the reseller prices reflect its rarity! This is Ms. Birkin 30 in Rose Confetti silver hardware in epsom. A pink Kelly is another dream of mine. Placing both pinks near each other in one page kind of shows how different they are. This is a 25 Kelly in Rose Sakura, gold hardware and swift leather. I feel swift leather suits this gorgeous soft pink. Blue Saint-Cyr seems like such a lovely and feminine blue. I think it looks perfect on this 28 Kelly in clemenc

Well...there's a really good chance the Tokyo trip is getting postponed for a second time. Yesterday I was really torn apart over it and felt my feelings of worthlessness resurfacing but today I am better. Postponing the trip till December is actually much better. The weather will be completely different. It'll be cold! Coming from a warm climate this sounds really amazing. I would love to go somewhere else for now but we aren't sure if it would be possible due to lengthy visa processes. For the moment, I've decided to look at Hermes.com  and their available bags (wondering if I can find any of them at my local boutique). First comes this small garden party in cobalt. I already have a garden party but in a larger size. I find it to be a really practical bag and I love having simple bags in many colors. Then comes this So Kelly in Peony and gold hardware. I don't know if Peony is an official Hermes color but that's what it says on the website. I've

My final exams are over!! I decided to treat myself to a few summer dresses from Modcloth.com  after spending a few years pinning clothes from there on pinterest. The floral dress makes me think of things I used to wear back in the day, long before I started having kids and being unable to care less what I wear.  Macarons are another type of dress that my old self would have worn. I feel like I am getting my identity back. It would be a cute dress to wear in Tokyo, too! I couldn't help it...the cat print is just too cute.

My finance final is over...only marketing to go now and I can't bring myself to study (as usual). More window shopping, this time from gymshark.com This is the second time I've posted a pastel pink long sleeve tee shirt. I think it's time I add one to my gym wardrobe.  There is something about pastels. This last pair of leggings looks like magic. 

My good friend M just gave me the web address of a retailer that sells really pretty bags! It's called lapalette.us I found their leather goods to be really adorable. Decided to post up pictures of my favorite pieces.  If it has a horse, I'll want o know more about it. Actually I only asked about my friend's bag because it had a horse on it.  They are so lovely and low-key. The colors are so attractive and the price is so reasonable.  If I ever go to Malaysia, I would have to go check out their boutiques! 

Here we are again. Instead of studying, here I am looking at Chanel eye candy. Pics are all from Chanel.com  Decided to just post up pictures of my favorite things from the fall-winter collection.

My semester deliverables have all been delivered! All that's left is my final exams next week. I just don't feel like studying today so I'm taking it off, lol. These screenshots were tall taken from the Chanel website. I've really been interested in Chanel lately after having mostly ignored it my entire adult life. I do have a few of their handbags that I do not use too often. But last year I got the camera bag that I really love. Now I find myself more interested in their collections as a whole.  Almost bought this little red one on the left recently but changed my mind at the last minute. Mostly because I already bought a different colored wallet-on-chain just a week earlier! The colors of these two bags are so classy and elegant! I wonder, though, if the style would remain timeless or would feel like "old trendy" a few years down the line? Really interested in chevron these days. I do wonder if one day I'll finally tak

My attempt at procrastinating has been successful. I am supposed to be studying for a marketing quiz but here I am looking at workout wear! I really do not need any new workout wear but I just can't help it. These pictures were all snapped from Lorna Jane. This top is very pretty. I like the diamond quilt like print in the fabric. I think there is a lack of this color in my gym wardrobe. A hoodie tank top! I have been coveting this for months now. They actually had something similar on sale a while back but I couldn't find my size. It's pink. What more can I say? I love the mesh at the tip of the tights. It's very interesting.  Another interesting mesh type of design. Maybe even more interesting than the previous one.  As I said...I don't need any new workout clothes, but knowing me I am probably going to go order right after I am done blogging...

A few days ago my sister invited me for a mani pedi & henna. I had no idea what I would want to do for henna though so I looked up something and made adjustments to make it simpler.  I've been scared and overwhelmed by the prospect of dieting and losing weight. But I've decided to take it one day at a time and I won't be strict to start with. My main concern at the moment is upping my water intake. Once that is under control I'll make little changes here and there. I don't want to decrease my carb intake too drastically as it seems to have a huge effect on my energy levels. One day at a time. 

Reminiscing better times. This is not the time for sweets and outings though. This is the time for hard work. Speaking of which, I have so much university work to do and I just can't bring myself to do it. Still on holiday mode. Can't wait for my actual holiday. 

My first empty bottle of July. This is one of my favorites. Its scent is very floral, like a field in the summer. Such a fresh scent. I'm actually planning to repurchase in the future. My mom is very sweet...she's including me and the kids in her future travels. I'd really love it. Only Japan is in the works right now, postponed to the second week of August. But who knows? maybe another opportunity will present itself. 

This is so hard to understand. Will I ever get over the pain of not getting what I feel I rightfully deserve? Will anything ever make up for the way I was treated? When will this ever end? At times it feels like I've gotten over it, like I've moved on, like everything will be okay. Then all of a sudden one day the tape starts repeating itself, the track is on loop and I have no way of reaching the stop or delete button. Why can't I be normal? Why can't I be happy? Why is pain overtaking me?