magical dreamer

Week by week I keep saying this week I'll go to class prepared, I'll have everything done before the day comes, everything will be fine. But it never is. It NEVER is. What is wrong with me?

Finally picked up a set of glamglow masks and tried them this morning. They're so lovely! My son was surprised to see the funny colors on my face and kept giggling and saying "mama?" it wss so adorable!  Love these little moments and trying to savor them...

So here i am sitting in bed with my school laptop in my lap. my son is asleep in his bed and my daughter and my cat are both cuddled in bed with me. is it just me or is this the best feeling in the world? i am practicing mindfulness in my own way and finding myself so full of love. 

So last night i decided to give away a bunch of my bags. i'm slowly decluttering my life right now and on sunday someone is going to come with a truck to pick up the furniture that we don't need anymore. a lot of stuff just got moved with us when we first moved in here from our previous living situation that we just didn't realize we don't need. Most of the time we didn't even choose them ourselves and were just given to us by others.  i don't know why i'm so stressed lately...there's no reason to be this stressed...

so this is my vday gift to myself. why? because i'm worth it. i saw a pink boy chanel only a few counters down and almost told them to take back mine and bring me one of those. the shade of pink is perfect. so here's something i hate. a person feels that they are suffering injustice in their workplace or being overworked and instead of going to a person who can make a difference and address their problems and make a difference, they just mention in passing to anyone who will listen that they are having health problems due to their job. i hate to say man up/woman up/grow a pair or whatever so i guess i'm changing the expression to saddle up.      

So apparently i hurt my back in a rigorous 1.30 minute session of body pump. What can i say...i got a bit too excited. but in my defense there weren't many choices of what weights to carry so i always ended up carrying heavier than lighter.  i did decide though that i'm not too fond of the evening crowd to be honest... the kids are still home from school but i'm still keeping them home tomorrow so i could go out. been feeling so down lately i just need to do something out alone. the precious group i went out with just made me feel worse.  bleh...thinking of not going to uni tonight...i can't believe i'm still a student. but i can't give up now. only 2 more semesters at this rate. 

My bag of the day. i like how this bag looks like it's a vintage bag and something that just came out a few months ago. the girl on the train, then gone girl, then sharp objects. i liked the last one the least but i am considering reading dark places next.  my skin is breaking out again...i think i am due for another session of hydrafacial.   

I bought this bag in the summer of 2015...and used it for the first time last week. i should definitely circulate my bags more often, and give away or sell bags i don't want to use anymore. There's no need for all the clutter, really.  Project spring cleaning is now underway, even though it's not even spring yet. But these projects tend to take months anyway.