magical dreamer

I guess one of the things that I can't get out of my head is that I never got the closure I wanted. I never had the opportunity to have a conversation. Things were really bad and I was extremely miserable, but I never got any apologies or gratitude for being the scapegoat and being understanding. I feel that I've been wronged, and not just by "her". It's more than I can take.

I'm writing this on my phone while sitting with my kids playing in the bath. They're clapping their hands in the bubbles and building castles with them.  A week on prozac has just passed and I'm not sure if anything feels any different. Or maybe this is a significant difference that I've taken for granted: it seems I didn't have any bouts of intrusive negative thoughts this past week. Whether it is caused by prozac or not is unclear. On the other hand, jaw clenching has returned. This was a side-effect of my previous medication. It is so bad that the jaw pain is constant.  ~~~~~~~ the bath was done so i had to get the kiddos dressed and ready.  tomorrow morning i'm going to be having my second therapy session with a new therapist and i'm kinda nervous.  ~~~~~~~ something i ate at dinner got stuck and/or injured my throat and it's sore right now...making me nauseous...